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On Tuesday afternoon at a diner in Echo Park, I interviewed a writer and he told me a story, violent and personal. He told the story suddenly, while I was smiling.

Are you serious? I said, which seems to be that very stupid thing people say when they’re stunned.

It was the beginning of the interview and I looked down at my notebook. I flipped through the pages but all my questions seemed flat.

Have I never told you that story before? he asked.

I shook my head no.

Are you OK?

Yes, I’m OK, I said because I wasn’t OK.

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Ted Wilson reviews crying.

In case you missed it: we love Isaac.

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As he took a big bite of his cheeseburger, I asked the writer a question and he got a look on his face like he didn’t want to answer the question and if he was going to answer, he wasn’t going to play nice.

Don’t do that, I said. Don’t you dare give me a snarky answer.

He kept chewing and I said, I’ve read your other interviews and you come off as snarky and cranky.

I come off as cranky because people are asking me questions. He said, Now I forgot the question.

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I’m interviewing Princess Donna soon, so I reread The Rumpus Oral History Project with Lorelei Lee. I wondered if it was worth imitating that particular project. Instead of asking her specific questions, maybe I can just ask Donna to tell me about her life. I told her I stitched more chapbooks of the Donna essay and she told me she wanted to sell them on her site, which seemed sweet to me.

I like to tell people I’m asexual. I’m not sure it’s true but it could be true. Stephen Elliott’s Random Thoughts About Intimacy Cloaked in a Review of the Movie (A)sexual. A couple years ago, Stephen read the essay at The Echo for The Rumpus event in Los Angeles. I was so happy he chose to read that particular essay. Before he left I said, I’m glad you read that. It made me feel better about myself. He looked at me like he was surprised.

Sometimes I think about this line, “Everyone wants to believe they’re the specialest one. Hence Love at first sight, etc. I didn’t want to go into it. It was all such a lie and I was tired of that lie.” Other times, I think of this question, ”If I have all this desire, how can I be asexual?”

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I just arrived to San Francisco and my friend picked me up from the airport and drove me to his work in the Mission District. He works at a tech company and he has to finish projects. I am always working or want to be working so I feel comfortable to be beside him in a spacious office with computers, snacks, and a great view of this beautiful city. I’m in San Francisco because I’m reading at a Portuguese Artist Colony event tomorrow. All the readers are from Los Angeles, actually. Anyway you should come and say hi.

I love the colors in Yumi’s comic today.


Zoe Ruiz is the former managing editor of The Rumpus. Her work has appeared in The Weeklings, Salon, Two Serious Ladies, and Ohio Edit. She studied creative writing at UC Santa Cruz and now lives in Los Angeles. More from this author →