“Dr. R’s is the Voice of the memoir—the voice in her head. So did writing the book end up being her way of continuing the conversation with him? ‘That was really the point,’ she says. ‘I was so scared of losing his voice. I had to internalize it, lock it in and make it a part of me, before it began to dissipate. Also, he thought I was a good person, and that meant the world to me, it was sort of a revelation. That was something I was afraid I’d lose track of, too. That I might go back to being that girl who’d look in the mirror with vomit on her face and burst blood vessels in her eyes and say ‘Ha! I caught you—the real monstrous you.’”
—Maud Newton has a must-read interview at The Awl with Emma Forrest about her memoir, Your Voice in My Head, written after her psychiatrist’s death.
