Ten Reasons Why I Am Afraid to Die
I am an atheist.
I am going to Hell
if I am wrong.
I have never
been to Easter
Island. I have never
been to Love
Island. I want
to know what
it is like to have
a happy family.
My funeral is unlikely
to be popping
as it stands. My cat
is likely to eat
my face. It looks
painful. I have not
accomplished enough
to be remembered.
I like life.
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Never Will I Ever
love. Even if I do
love, I will never
marry. Even if I do
marry, it won’t
last. Even if it does
last, my boys can’t
swim. Even if my boys can
swim, they’ll be
dog-paddlers. Even if they’re
fish, I will
damage them. Even if I don’t
damage them, they won’t
like me. Even if they do
like me, it’ll cost my
ambition. Even if my
wishes are
granted, every
last one, I will never be
happy. Even if I’m
happy, I will never be
loved. Even if I’m
loved, I will never be
happy. Even if I
am, I’m not.
