Essays

  • Antigua Blues

    Antigua Blues

    “…you dont know whats inside from the outside you just have to take a chance.”

  • Rumpus Original Essay: Center of Gravity

    Rumpus Original Essay: Center of Gravity

    I’ve always been good at picking Ethan out of a crowd. When you love someone, you know where they are. I can taste the roar and purr of the ice under his blades. I imagine his parents watching him as…

  • The Rumpus: Redesigned

    The Rumpus: Redesigned

    When Debbie Millman and I decided to buy The Rumpus, one of the first things we wanted to do was redesign the website which was great but due for a refresh. For the past several months, we have worked with…

  • On Nature Writing, Growing up an Indoor Kid, and Walmart as Landscape

    On Nature Writing, Growing up an Indoor Kid, and Walmart as Landscape

    We see the world through high resolution filters. Brands become our chaperones to exotic landscapes. Never mind the break in aesthetic—the golden arches pop-up along the interstate while driving through Death Valley like the sudden appearance of a roadside oasis.…

  • House of Three Rooms

    “The body flicks the lights on. A yellowing glow floods the interior, like a head full of nothing. The lights are on, goes the saying, but nobody’s home. My father says this about the dog too dumb to hunt. The…

  • Grim

    Grim

    I didn’t know how to be this kind of parent. Until this moment, I’d followed a prescribed path: packing lunches, ferrying my kids to and from school, serving balanced meals, running baths in the evening. I aspired to be unremarkable,…

  • On a street named after a forest

    On a street named after a forest

    my parents didn’t believe me that biking made no sense to my body & they told me I was too afraid & I tried to believe them & I rode where they told me to ride even though I knew…

  • Junkies

    Junkies

    Wendy tells me I snore so loud she can’t sleep. It’s not the first time she’s said this, but I don’t bother apologizing this time. Your septum’s already fucked up, you can’t do anything about it. For some reason, it…

  • To Become a Fossil

    To Become a Fossil

    Some people made long pilgrimages to marvel at this superlative specimen. Other people, like the girl growing up in a nearby suburb, got to know SUE through happy proximity. And because her grandma—my grandma—volunteered at the Field Museum. What I’m…

  • Books That Made Me Gay: “The Haunting of Hill House” by Shirley Jackson

    Books That Made Me Gay: “The Haunting of Hill House” by Shirley Jackson

    The mansion, introduced in the novel’s famous and enchanting first paragraph as, “Hill House, not sane,” is a home with a foreboding facade, an unhappy history, and walls set at angles all ever so slightly wrong. 

  • Hear the River Laugh 

    Hear the River Laugh 

    In the blink of an eye he slipped under. The flash of a foot popped through the river’s amber hue downstream from where he’d been. I stood on the side of the bank. Other swimmers reached into the river from…

  • Something New
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    Something New

    Forcing myself, muscling through the mental pain. This is what I remember most of my own recovery. After the brief psychiatric hospitalization at eighteen, I returned for my second freshman semester hell-bent on erasing my failures, erasing the girl I’d…

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