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  • How Not to Be Humiliated

    How Not to Be Humiliated

    Twenty-one years ago, a week before Thanksgiving, you were admitted to Dorothea Dix State Psychiatric Hospital in Raleigh, NC.

  • When Journalistic Ethics Aren’t So Ethical

    In the course of writing a story about a golf club, a Grantland journalist named Caleb Hannan discovered that the club’s inventor was a transgender woman. She ended up committing suicide, which, though he doesn’t seem to realize it’s a…

  • Releasing Grief

    Following some tumultuous years that included divorce, birth, separation, and her mother’s suicide, Rumpus contributor Gayle Brandeis has written an essay at The Manifest Station where she releases all of that from her body and finally asks the question: How…

  • OG Dad #21: The Head Bang, the Hole In The Wall, and the Happy Fart

    OG Dad #21: The Head Bang, the Hole In The Wall, and the Happy Fart

    My daughter likes to bang her head off the floor. It makes a point—an especially guilt-tinged one, given that we had to get rid of our carpets due to a mold infestation, so now there’s no cushion between baby cranium…

  • A Journalist Reports on Herself

    Last November, journalist Leonora LaPeter Anton profiled a woman named Gretchen Molannen, who had been living for years with an almost unbearable chronic illness: persistent genital arousal disorder. The day after the piece was published, Anton was notified that Molannen…

  • “The Year I Didn’t Kill Myself”

    Why did my mother kill herself and I didn’t that year and have not?…I ask myself at the farmer’s market when David shows me the black radishes that I use in risotto or when Sarah takes me to the ranch…

  • Through the Dam

    Through the Dam

    We both pretended to ignore the brown bag inserted into the plastic grocery bags. We ignored my role as witness to this process.

  • Remembering David Foster Wallace

    Five years ago today, groundbreaking writer David Foster Wallace took his own life. Maria Popova at Brain Pickings remembers him with a post excerpting Conversations with David Foster Wallace, a “collection of 22 interviews and profiles of the beloved author.” A…

  • Jumpers

    “The Golden Gate Bridge was born a metaphor….The span would connect San Francisco with Marin County, engineering with nature, and the past with the future”—and, for a queasily high number of people, life with death. For Guernica, Candace Opper looks at…

  • Death of a Gay Porn Star

    “Why do gay porn stars kill themselves” offers an intimate account into Conner Habib’s experiences in gay porn, and examines the cultural misunderstandings and attitudes regarding the recent suicide of gay porn star Arpad Miklos. Habbib says: The theories appeared…

  • What Music?

    What Music?

    A dozen Decembers ago, my brother was found in his Bronco, burnt to shit.

  • Get Me Away From Here, I’m Dying

    Get Me Away From Here, I’m Dying

    No one comes in to check on me, no one asks if I’m okay after I finally emerge, embarrassed, my eyes completely red. They all love me, but not enough to forgive what I’m about to do.