At Emily Books, Rumpus columnist Sari Botton expands on her recent conversation with Emily Carter. Botton addresses her regret at leaving out certain topics, and the personal reasons at the heart of those editorial choices.
“Most of all, the issue is wound up in my central dilemma – my conflicting, deep motivations to both write the truth and protect my father from it. It has been slowly bringing me around to seeing my deep dependence on his approval, even where it isn’t warranted, even though I’m a grownup in my mid-forties. I’ve been afraid to see that tied in with the fear of upsetting my father – more than my mother or anyone else – is that fucking unrelenting male approval issue.”