Essays

  • Knott’s Berry Farm, 1996

    Knott’s Berry Farm, 1996

    At thirteen, we were not afraid to speak aloud what we already knew—we would rather die than let them see the secrets of our bodies exposed. They had taught us enough about hiya, that we feared the weight of its…

  • Eurotrash as Nonfiction

    Eurotrash as Nonfiction

    I was pleasantly surprised to learn that much of the music I enjoyed incorporated some component of nonfiction. Emboldened by a breakneck beat, Eurotrash reserves space for societal commentary through the lens of the speaker’s experiences. Translations by fans on…

  • Neighborly

    Neighborly

    I met Leeanner and Ed six years prior when I bought my house in east Austin. I had saved up the down payment working tech jobs I hated, and I was excited to nest. I told myself it was a…

  • We Never Needed Each Other

    We Never Needed Each Other

    “I have wondered if my mother’s unhappiness is rooted in having three daughters, which in a traditional Chinese family meant my parents tried unsuccessfully three times for a son. I have also wondered if my mother’s unhappiness, evidenced by her…

  • Grief Makes Nothing Happen

    Grief Makes Nothing Happen

    We all recognize certain types of loss. If we’re fortunate, we take bereavement leave from our jobs, perform the pre-made grieving rituals. But we also know these aren’t the only losses, nor are they always the worst ones. Surely you…

  • Stick a Clock in Me I’m Pregnant 

    Stick a Clock in Me I’m Pregnant 

    The subject of when to have kids haunted Matt and me for about one year. For me, it always came down to career success. I couldn’t imagine being happy as a mother without publishing at least one book. I’d resent…

  • Harpooning the Self: “Moby-Dick,” Fatphobia, and the Monomaniacal Pursuit of Control

    Harpooning the Self: “Moby-Dick,” Fatphobia, and the Monomaniacal Pursuit of Control

    But in our culture, it must be subdued, extracted, and of course sold. Their podcast has saved me in numerous ways these past years. Each morning, driving to my job at a small high school in the deep South, I…

  • More Human: On Science Fairs, Artificial Intelligence, and Educational Experiments

    More Human: On Science Fairs, Artificial Intelligence, and Educational Experiments

    My first-year composition students come to me much like that little dot in my sixth-grade science fair demonstration. They’ve spent years bumping around on a grid their teachers keep rearranging, and they’ve learned some things about how to navigate it.…

  • My Personal Essay

    My Personal Essay

    There is an undercurrent to learning, a movement below the surface activity that pulls in the opposite direction. Sometimes a rip develops, a powerful surge that can carry you or drown you or maybe it generates just off to the…

  • A Hollow Kingdom All My Own

    A Hollow Kingdom All My Own

    I write in the margins of existence. Between shifts. During bus rides. In the quiet hours when my neighbors finally stop screaming or blaring out the trash they call music. My laptop’s held together with duct tape and stubborn hope,…

  • Mouth and Muscle

    Mouth and Muscle

    In Tierney’s shows, hockey runs on two blades: muscle and mouth. You need the athletic strength, speed, and skill — and if an opponent asks you, “Nice onesie, does it come in mens?” You need to be able to shoot…

  • The National Shutdown

    Tomorrow, Friday January 30th, there will be a national shutdown to protest the ongoing, egregious violence being perpetrated by ICE and other federal law enforcement agents in Minneapolis and all across the country. In solidarity, we won’t be posting any…