All the Tired Horses
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...moreThe best books I have read about motherhood have not reassured me that these feelings will resolve.
...moreMy miraculous children were mine, and mine alone.
...moreApples do not grow “true to seed,” meaning that what you put in the ground isn’t always what comes back out of it.
...moreThe contempt the place exuded for the people inside it felt physical, hanging in the air like humidity.
...moreKrys Malcolm Belc discusses his debut memoir, THE NATURAL MOTHER OF THE CHILD.
...moreAnna North discusses her new novel, OUTLAWED.
...moreI worried that I no longer knew myself.
...moreKaren Russell discusses her newest collection, ORANGE WORLD AND OTHER STORIES.
...moreCan women ever fully escape the restrictions upon them, the risk to their bodies that comes from being born female?
...moreFor my daughter Stella’s first birthday, we got her a babysitter.
...moreMy body is a terra nullius, belonging to no one, not even me.
...moreSheila Heti discusses her new novel, MOTHERHOOD!
...moreIt’s not easy being the mother of a dead child. In fact, it may be the hardest kind of mothering there is.
...moreShe didn’t want anything to change. She understood it would be easier if she loved the child. But she did not want to love it.
...moreAs May moves through what she now calls her “postpartum challenge,” she does not return to her old self, but instead becomes someone new.
...moreWhen I came home from war, I felt relief. Now that I’m home after childbirth, I’m still waiting for relief. War ends. Motherhood does not.
...moreRumaan Alam discusses his new novel, That Kind of Mother, the limits of the employer-employee relationship, and the grossness of heterosexual sex.
...moreWhen the physical therapist explains the electric dildo she holds in her hand will reset the nerve endings in my vagina so I won’t need to pee every hour, I say, “Get it in me and let’s go.”
...moreMeaghan O’Connell discusses her new memoir, And Now We Have Everything, perfectionism in motherhood and writing, and being pregnant again.
...moreI think fresh semen smells like aspirin, which is made from a mold that grows on birch trees, which of course are phallic.
...more[O’Connell’s] baby, once born, is not the answer to any question, but rather the genesis of a thousand new ones.
...moreLeslie Jamison discusses The Recovering: Intoxication and Its Aftermath, understanding that every text is incomplete, and whether motherhood has changed her writing.
...moreShe said something to me, then, that has been a great comfort. “You had a choice,” she said, “but you did not have free will.” A choice that was no choice at all.
...moreCan you see it now? Is the image different in your mind yet? A thing you can’t unsee.
...moreVictoria Redel discusses her newest novel, Before Everything, living through and beyond grief, and why she loves secrets.
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