When Justin was twenty, his mother was murdered by her fifth husband in their trailer, off the grid from Tombstone, Arizona. He spent the next decade trying not to be defined by his mother’s death, before deciding to face his grief head on for his new memoir, Son of a Gun.
"I'm like an alcoholic who doesn't drink anything but worst case scenarios..." In the aftermath of trauma, Emily Rapp struggles to give up being "on call" for grief.
Years after losing her entire family, the author takes a romantic vacation in paradise and instead must confront the physical manifestations of her grief.
Very gradually, this frantic activity ceased to be simply an expression of emotional distress—what the grief experts call “searching behaviour”—and started evolving into a digital, extended elegiac project.
Both Yuknavitch and Scarboro, whose books echo each other in interesting ways, were willing to talk with me about this question of what to do with memoir, and much more.
The Rumpus joins yoga teacher Jennifer Pastiloff in remembering Emily Rapp's son, Ronan Louis, whose brief, remarkable life ended in the early morning hours on February 15.
I felt like an arrow of sheer desire, flying through the air in a small town and emblazoned with this unfortunate tag line: “Newly single mother of a dying baby.”
No one comes in to check on me, no one asks if I’m okay after I finally emerge, embarrassed, my eyes completely red. They all love me, but not enough to forgive what I’m about to do.