Out here on the balcony, perched three stories above the ground, we’re in her world. ...more
Tags: Abuse, addiction, alcohol, alcoholic, alcoholism, child abuse, drinking, Gabrielle Rucker, hunger, mothers, mothers and daughters, Rumpus Original Fiction, short fiction, short story
I was fine. No one and nothing could hurt me. ...more
Tags: A Clergyman's Daughter, absent father, absent fathers, Al-Anon, Alateen, alcohol, alcohol abuse, alcoholic, alcoholism, ascites, blackout, blackouts, childhood trauma, cirrhosis, college, daughters, divorce, drinking, DUI, DWI, family, fathers, fathers and daughters, graduation, high school, inherited trauma, intergenerational trauma, jaundice, liver disease, mothers, mothers and daughters, Sheree L. Greer, therapy, Voices on Addiction
“What’s a six-letter word for ignoring truth,” she might say, without looking up from the puzzle. ...more
Tags: Alzheimer's, breakup, Catholic, dementia, divorce, family, husbands, husbands and wives, illness, Joseph Santaella Vidal, love, marriage, Miscarriage, model planes, mothers, mothers and daughters, pregnancy, relationships, Rumpus Original Fiction, short fiction, short story, siblings, single mother
I read somewhere that sounds don’t stop, they keep going all the way into deep space, reflecting off whatever might be in the way and speeding infinitely on. My head feels like deep space, and those voices haven’t even begun to wind down in there. ...more
Only now can I finally see how this had been our pact all along. We’d decided between us, somewhere along the way, and without any real discussion, that my mother would be the flower and I would be the wax paper. ...more
The important thing to remember when climbing a pole, a rope, a mountain is to not look down. ...more
Tags: activism, anger, breakup, confederate flag, ex-boyfriend, Jade Jones, KKK, mothers, mothers and daughters, Racism, Rumpus Original Fiction, short fiction, short story
Afterward, there was dead silence in the kitchen. I know because I held my breath. Even air molecules seemed to still. ...more
Tags: Abuse, child abuse, domestic violence, essay, family, fathers, fathers and daughters, gender, Lidia Yuknavitch, mothers, mothers and daughters, Rumpus Essay, violence, violence against women
“Things can catch fire even when they let each other go. But we don’t give up. We don’t stop loving them.” ...more
Tags: Ashley C. Ford, childhood, daughter, divorce, essay, family, fathers, mothers, parenting, Rumpus Essay, snakes
A Rumpus series of work by women, trans, and nonbinary writers that engages with rape culture, sexual assault, and domestic violence.
Tags: American Dream, breast cancer, cancer, chemotherapy, dating, Diaspora, domestic abuse, domestic violence, ENOUGH, filipino, gendered violence, immigrants, love, misogyny, mothers, mothers and daughters, Pamela Delupio, patriarchy, Rape culture, relationships, sexual assault, sexual trauma, sexual violence
Everyone, even the most tell-all writer, withholds something in the interests of protecting herself or others, but my interest in my own stories has always been to use them to illustrate larger stories about the culture . . .
Tags: and Others, audre lorde, fathers, Freud, generational trauma, hypnagogia, mothers, Mothers Fathers and Others, psychoanalyst, secure attachment, The Summer Without Men
I am sick with grief, triggered by my mother’s death, in turn triggered by Chardonnay. ...more
Tags: adoption, Alberstons, alcohol use disorder, alcoholic, alcoholism, celiac, celiac disease, cooking, death, family history, grief, grocery store, hospice, Indiana, Melissa Stephenson, mothers, mothers and daughters, Voices on Addiction
Cynthia Dewi Oka discusses her new collection, FIRE IS NOT A COUNTRY.
Tags: Apocalypse, apocalyptic, Berkshires, Book Club, COVID, COVID-19, Cynthia Dewi Oka, fire, Fire Is Not a Country, ice, immigrant, immigrants, Indonesia, Inupiaq, Jean Genet, Kierkegaard, mothers, mothers and daughters, Northwestern University Press, NUP, pandemic, Papua, poems, poetry, poetry book club, pop culture, Questlove, religion, Rumpus Poetry Book Club, single motherhood, Single Mothers, the roots, The Rumpus Poetry Book Club, The Thief’s Journal, Toni Morrison
You are never really at peace with what you haven’t gotten. ...more
Tags: aging, California, divorce, family, gun club, gun show, gun violence, guns, hunting, los angeles, marriage, mothers, NRA, pistols, relationships, Rumpus Original Fiction, Seattle, second amendment, short fiction, short stories, short story, Timothy Laurence Marsh, Vietnam, weapons
I feel guilt in the not good enough I carry alongside the not bad enough. ...more
Tags: american south, childhood, childhood home, childhood trauma, Christianity, church, coming out, conversion therapy, daughters, depression, family, family trauma, fathers, fathers and daughters, gay, Gay Girl Good God, homophobia, hurricane, LGBTQ, military, military mother, military wives, mothers, mothers and daughters, North Carolina, power outage, Pride, queer, queers, reading, religion, shame, Southern, storms, suicidal ideation, Tyler Anne Whichard, weather
The mother, too, is a monument. I am haunted by mine. ...more
Tags: Alina Stefanescu, Anne Carson, Birmingham, CIA, communism, crimes against the state, daughters, Eastern Bloc, Eugenia Ginzberg, Euripides, Horses, monuments, motherhood, mothers, mothers and daughters, Ovid, parenting, Romania, theodor adorno, treason
Amanda Moore discusses her debut collection, REQUEENING.
Tags: Aimee Nezhukumatathil, Amanda Moore, animals, beekeeping, Bees, Ben Gucciardi, Book Club, COVID, COVID-19, debut collection, Ecco Books, Focal Point, Into English, Jenny Qi, Lake Michigan, Maria Dahvana Headley, motherhood, mothering, mothers, Native Air, natural world, nature, pandemic, parenting, Plath, poems, poetry, poetry book club, Requeening, Rumpus Poetry Book Club, San Francisco, surfing, sylvia plath, teaching, The Adventures of China Iron, The Great Believers, The Rumpus Poetry Book Club, translation, West Portal
To be imbricated in hundreds of years of colonial violence is to be entangled in colorist logics and stories of loss and belonging that are rarely linear or singular. ...more
Tags: blackness, book review, Cambridge, caribbean, childhood trauma, collage, colonialism, cooperative, Essay Press, essay writing, essays, farming, historical trauma, homophobia, hybrid, hybrid genre, hybrid memoir, immigration, katherine agyemaa agard, kathryn walkiewicz, Lapeyrouse, Lesbian, lesbians, LGBTQ, Massachusetts, memoir, microagression, microagressions, mixed media, mothers, mothers and daughters, of colour, patriarchy, Peter Doig, photography, poems, poetry, Port of Spain, prose poems, queer, queerness, Racism, review, sexism, sexuality, slavery, trauma, Trinidad, Trinidad and Tobago, visual art, whiteness
“Life is incredibly sad, but it’s also funny, joyful, wonderful, and strange.”
Tags: Alice Munro, American University, Amy Leach, Andrew Beraina, angela carter, bojack horseman, Borges, debut collection, Edward P. Jones, flash fiction, Gabriel Garcia Marquez, george eliot, george saunders, Italo Calvino, Jorge Luis Borges, kelly link, lydia davis, Moon City Short Fiction, mothers, One Person Away From You, short fiction, short stories, short story, Steven Millhauser, The Bloody Chamber, The Rumpus Mini-Interview Project, tolstoy, Toni Morrison
Gene Kwak discusses his debut novel, GO HOME, RICKY!
Tags: Abrams Press, Alysia Sawchyn, Barry Hannah, Book Club, Christopher Gonazlez, Christopher Gonzales, Christopher Gonzalez, Claire Vaye Watkins, Eli Mock, fatherhood, Gene Kwak, Go Home Ricky, hypermasculinity, I Love You but I've Chosen Darkness, I’m Not Hungry But I Could Eat, Indigenous, Julie Buntin, Marisa Siegel, masculinity, Midwest, Mina Seçkin, mothers, mothers and sons, Native, nostalgia, Omaha, Overlook Press, race, Racism, Randy Savage, Rumpus Book Club, The Four Humors, The Rumpus Book Club, Thomas McGuan, toxic masculinity, whiteness, wrestling
Jenny Qi discusses her debut poetry collection, FOCAL POINT.
Tags: afterlife, carl sagan, China, Chinese, Chinese American, Crying in H Mart, Cultural Revolution, debut collection, family, Focal Point, Great Leap Forward, grief, Jenny Qi, Kat Chow, Michelle Zauner, mothers, mothers and daughters, poems, poetry, Richard Feynman, spirituality, Tria Wen, Victoria Chang
Leonora Simonovis discusses her debut collection, STUDY OF THE RAFT.
Tags: Aquiles Nazoa, bilingual, border crossing, Caracas, Colorado Prize for Poetry, debut collection, Federico Garcia Lorca, immigration, intersectionality, Janet Rodriguez, Leonora Simonovis, mothers, mothers and daughters, poems, poetry, political corruption, political violence, religion, revising, revision, san diego, Sherwin Bitsui, Study of the Raft, translation, US-Mexico border, Venezuela
The mind, you see, wants better weather. The mind wants to believe what suits it best. ...more
Tags: anxiety, childhood trauma, christmas, COVID, COVID-19, Danielle Cadena Deulen, Danielle Deulen, drinking, dubai, Duino Elegies, estrangement, family, fathers, fathers and daughters, friendship, illness, insomnia, Madison, masculinity, mortality, motherhood, mothers, pandemic, parents, pneumonia, postpartum, pregnancy, Rainer Maria Rilke, Rilke, Robert FitzRoy, Shara Lessley, snakes, snow, suicide, The Shipping Forecast, The Waste Land, therapist, therapy, toxic masculinity, trauma, TS Eliot, winter, Wisconsin
I took a deep breath. A long one. And I started rocking again. ...more
Tags: babies, Carly Rae Zent, fatherhood, fathers, husbands and wives, marriage, motherhood, mothering, mothers, mothers and daughters, new mothers, parenting, pregnancy, pregnant, Rumpus Original Fiction, short fiction, short stories, short story
Amid all this survival, Cho carries the reader through with the comfort of food. ...more
Tags: Asian Americans, book review, Chehalis, food, generational trauma, grace m. cho, identity, immigrants, immigration, inherited trauma, intergenerational trauma, Korea, Korean American, memoir, mental illness, migration, mothers, mothers and daughters, Racism, research, review, schizophrenia, sonja flancher, tastes like war, trauma, violence, war, war writing, washington
Finding joy in the now, even as death and difficulty mark the days, is possible, a choice, and a practice. ...more
Tags: AA, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism, assault, berlin, Brett Kavanaugh, childhood trauma, drinking, drunk, family, family dynamics, family dysfunction, family trauma, grandmother, grandmothers, inherited trauma, mothers, mothers and daughters, recovery, Sandra Shattuck, Voices on Addiction
There is a cloudy line between noise and sound, routine and ritual. ...more
Tags: Albertine Robinson, All My Children, All the Tired Horses in the Sun, Anechoic Chamber, bob dylan, childbirth, classical conditioning, classical music, Finland, Hilda Harris, Hoh Rain Forest, john cage, Maeretha Stewart, Marina Abramovic, motherhood, mothers, Mozart effect, Music, noise, noise pollution, Norway, parenting, pavlov, pregnancy, psychic tv, Rhys Chatham, Sara Gelston Somers, Self Portrait, Sensory Processing Disorder, silence, song, songs, Steve Reich, Sweden, The Mozart Effect, tinnitus
The best books I have read about motherhood have not reassured me that these feelings will resolve. ...more
Tags: abigail tucker, book review, c-section, childbirth, children, control, depression, elizabeth barber, family, fathers, gender roles, husbands, husbands and wives, journalism, journalist, maternal instinct, memoir, mom genes, motherhood, mothering, mothers, Nell Frizzell, NICU, pregnancy, privilege, Rachel Cusk, research, review, Ross Douthat, Smithsonian Magazine, The Lion in the Living Room, The Panic Years, women's bodies, women's health
To have lost, found, and then lost again seems especially wrenching, a kind of unmothering. ...more
Tags: adoption, birth mother, book review, Campus Cuties, childhood, childhood trauma, Chin-Sun Lee, Cornell University, Dare Wright, debut collection, debut memoir, divorce, dollhouse, dolls, Domecon, fairy tale, family, family history, feminism, feminist, gender inequality, gender roles, Jean Nathan, John Broadus Watson, literary tropes, marriage, Megan Culhane Galbraith, memoir, memoir-in-essays, memories, memory, motherhood, mothering, mothers, patriarchy, photographs, photography, review, The Guild of the Infant Saviour: An Adopted Child's Memory Book, The Lonely Doll, The Secret Life of the Lonely Doll, trauma
A fossil. A body. A message from a recovered life. ...more
Tags: Alexander the Great, Cascade Mountains, coming out, family, fluid sexuality, identity, Joe Leary Slough, Lesbian, lesbians, LGBTQ, memory, mothers, mothers and daughters, nuns, queer, queer relationships, queerness, rape, relationships, rural, rural America, sexual identity, sexual trauma, sexual violence, Taneum Bambrick, trauma, trees, washington
My miraculous children were mine, and mine alone. ...more
Tags: animals, body horror, Cate Fricke, childbirth, divorce, family, fertility, husbands and wives, infertility, motherhood, mothers, parenthood, pregnancy, Rumpus Original Fiction, science fiction, Sex, short fiction, short stories, short story