Maybe being haunted is just feeling something crooked nearby ...more
“Is this sex?” “No.” “Is this sex?” “No.” “How about now?” “Maybe.” “I think so.” “Probably.” ...more
I have great affection for writers who come into their queerness after they’ve already written books . . . ...more
Safety requires setting up clear boundaries, but a restricted life is lonely and isolating and often impossible to bear. ...more
I developed two books. One I called “The Gay Book,” and one I called “The North Dakota Book.” Well, those are the same book, as you can imagine. ...more
This is a carousel that never slows to a point where you can board gracefully. ...more
Tags: Alejandro Varela, Cruising, Dating Apps, gay, gay men, husband, husbands and wives, jealousy, LGBTQ, marriage, Monogamy, online dating, open marriage, Pedro Almodovar, queer, relationships, Rumpus Original Fiction, Sex, sexuality, short fiction, short stories, short story, Todo Sobre Mi Madre, wife
It’s heavier than I thought it would be, and stiffer. The cotton drill fabric has the feel of an army jacket. The snaps and clasps and buckles have a certain sensuality, a resonance of kink, but otherwise, in color and heft, the garment is as ordinary as any one of the many pairs of pants […]
I’m the only deaf person at the party, again. ...more
Then there is the bathroom issue. My beloved is like me, like you, like anyone. Sometimes a person has to go. ...more
Tags: Barrie Jean Borich, Bathroom Law, bathrooms, butch, discrimination, Donald Trump, essay, femme, gender, Lesbian, LGBTQ, LGBTQIA, North Carolina, prince, public bathrooms, queer, relationships, Rumpus Essay, The Public Facilities Privacy and Security Act, Title IX, trans, Trump
There’s something about stillness that always comes just before the miracles. ...more
Tags: Angels, Arielle K. Jones, church, Easter, God, lesbians, LGBTQ, love, queer, religion, Rumpus Original Fiction, sexuality, short fiction, short story
“So it’s a surprise to you—and not entirely a pleasant one—when you fall in love with someone who has a penis. You thought you’d set up defenses against the possibility, but here he is, and here you are, loving him.”
It’s always been ground glass, scraping against my insides. I imagine a light held to the place where I open would illuminate a mess of torn flesh, throbbing red-wet. ...more
Tags: anxiety, bdsm, blackout, bodies, chronic illness, control, dildo, disability, dungeon, dysautonomia, emergency room, ER, Erotica, essay, fainting, female body, hospital, illness, kink, Lauren Kayes, Lesbian, LGBTQ, medication, Pain, porn, queer, Rumpus Essay, Sex, sex toys, sexuality, spanking, syncopal, Ted Kennedy, therapist, therapy, vibrator
A Rumpus series of work by women, trans, and nonbinary writers that engages with rape culture, sexual assault, and domestic violence.
Tags: Abuse, childhood trauma, coming out, domestic violence, ENOUGH, Lesbian, lesbians, LGBTQ, misogyny, patriarchy, Politics, queer, queerness, rape, Rape culture, Sex, sexism, sexual abuse, sexual assault, sexual harassment, sexual identity, sexual trauma, sexual violence, sexuality, toxic masculinity, trauma
The path down to the riflery range was steep and winding, littered with roots. ...more
The words blur, become meaningless. You need them to be meaningless. ...more
Tags: bullying, campus, college, coming out, dating, friendship, homophobia, Internet, internet friends, internet trolls, Kayla Kumari Upadhyaya, LGBTQ, Online, queer, relationships, Rumpus Original Fiction, short fiction, short stories, short story, trolling, trolls
The experience, rather than linear, is borealian. ...more
Tags: Aisha Sabatini Sloan, Alaska, Bong Joon-ho, book review, book-length essay, Borealis, Claire Denis, coffee house press, community, George Perec, Homer, Jean Toomer, LGBTQ, Lisa Hsiao Chen, Lorna Simpson, Matthew Henson, natural world, nature, nature writing, queer, queerness, Racism, review, Robin Coste Lewis, Spatial Species, travel, travel writing
Christopher Gonzalez discusses his debut story collection, I’M NOT HUNGRY BUT I COULD EAT.
Tags: Adele, Alysia Sawchyn, Anthony Medina, Anton Hur, audiobook, audiobooks, Book Club, carmen maria machado, Christian Barillas, Christopher Gonzalez, class inequality, Dancing on My Own, debut collection, eating, flash, flash fiction, food, food writing, Hannah Grieco, helen rosner, hooking up, I’m Not Hungry But I Could Eat, Latinx, Latinx literature, Latinx writers, LGBTQ, Love in the Big City, lydia davis, Monica Prince, Puerto Rican, queer, queerness, Robyn, Rumpus Book Club, Sang Young Park, Santa Fe Writers Project, second person, SFWP, short fiction, short stories, Susan Minot, taco bell, Taco Bell Quarterly, The Rumpus Book Club, Tony Chiroldes
“…each month I embrace a kind of death within my womb that offers me a life I can live with.”
Tags: American Horror Story, black bodies, bodies, erasure poems, erasure poetry, Erica N. Cardwell, fist of wind, Foglifter, Foglifter Press, gender, journaling, LGBTQ, medical racism, medical trauma, menstrual, menstrual cycle, menstruation, Nefertiti Asanti, ntozake shange, Pain, PMDD, PMS, poems, poetry, ppd, premenstrual dysphoric disorder, queer, queerness, reproductive freedom, reproductive health, reproductive rights, the present is a small child, The Rumpus Mini-Interview Project, uterus, Vievee Francis, Yolanda Wisher
Ryka Aoki discusses her second novel, LIGHT FROM UNCOMMON STARS.
Tags: 9/11, AIDS, AIDS crisis, AIDS epidemic, aliens, anti-Asian, Asian American, capitalism, COVID, COVID-19, Douglas Adams, Galaxy Quest, genre, genre fiction, LGBTQ, Light from Uncommon stars, Maylin Tu, Monty Python, musician, musicians, pandemic, patriarchy, queer, queer family, queerness, romance, Ryka Aoki, San Gabriel Valley, sci-fi, science fiction, sex work, space opera, Tor Books, trans, transgender, transwomen, trauma, trauma porn, violin
I feel guilt in the not good enough I carry alongside the not bad enough. ...more
Tags: american south, childhood, childhood home, childhood trauma, Christianity, church, coming out, conversion therapy, daughters, depression, family, family trauma, fathers, fathers and daughters, gay, Gay Girl Good God, homophobia, hurricane, LGBTQ, military, military mother, military wives, mothers, mothers and daughters, North Carolina, power outage, Pride, queer, queers, reading, religion, shame, Southern, storms, suicidal ideation, Tyler Anne Whichard, weather
Mattilda Bernstein Sycamore discusses BETWEEN CERTAIN DEATH AND A POSSIBLE FUTURE.
Tags: Ahmed Awadalla, AIDS, AIDS crisis, Andrew Spieldenner, anthology, Arsenal Pulp, Arsenal Pulp Press, Between Certain Death and a Possible Future, C.L. Severson, colonialism, generational trauma, historical trauma, HIV, HIV/AIDS, homophobia, hugh ryan, intergenerational trauma, Kate Doyle Griffith, Let the Record Show, LGBTQ, Liam O’Brian, mattilda bernstein sycamore, Patrick Milian, Prep, queer, Robyn, Rock Hudson, Sarah Schulman, sassafras lowrey, shame, Sketchtasy, Ted Kerr, The End of San Francisco, The Freezer Door, transphobia, trauma, Zach Shultz
Christopher Gonzalez discusses his debut story collection, I’M NOT HUNGRY BUT I COULD EAT.
Tags: Alejandro Varela, autofiction, Barrelhouse, bodies, bryan washington, Christopher Gonzalez, community, Danny Caine, desire, Diego Zuniga, eating, flash fiction, food, friendship, gatekeeping, Hannah Grieco, How to Sit, I’m Not Hungry But I Could Eat, identity, Jenny Offill, justin torres, LGBTQ, Literary Community, Nafissa Thompson-Spires, Puerto Rican, queer, Raven Leilani, regret, Santa Fe Writers Project, sexuality, SFWP, short fiction, short stories, Tyrese Coleman, Tyrese L. Coleman, we the animals
To be imbricated in hundreds of years of colonial violence is to be entangled in colorist logics and stories of loss and belonging that are rarely linear or singular. ...more
Tags: blackness, book review, Cambridge, caribbean, childhood trauma, collage, colonialism, cooperative, Essay Press, essay writing, essays, farming, historical trauma, homophobia, hybrid, hybrid genre, hybrid memoir, immigration, katherine agyemaa agard, kathryn walkiewicz, Lapeyrouse, Lesbian, lesbians, LGBTQ, Massachusetts, memoir, microagression, microagressions, mixed media, mothers, mothers and daughters, of colour, patriarchy, Peter Doig, photography, poems, poetry, Port of Spain, prose poems, queer, queerness, Racism, review, sexism, sexuality, slavery, trauma, Trinidad, Trinidad and Tobago, visual art, whiteness
Stacey Waite talks about her poetry collections BUTCH GEOGRAPHY and THE LAKE HAS NO SAINT.
Tags: A Real Man Would Have a Gun, Butch Geography, feminism, feminist, Gender Butler, Judith Butler, Julie Marie Wade, lake has no saint, LGBTQ, Li-Young Lee, Love Poem to Androgyny, Lucille Clifton, pedagogy, poems, poetry, queer, queerness, Ralph Angel, Richard Blanco, Stacey Waite, Teaching Queer, Tupelo Quarterly, Ways of Teaching, Young Writers Institute
I hate the word clean. It’s antiseptic, scrubbed raw; it makes me think of sin and guilt and a God I don’t believe in. ...more
Tags: aging, bathing, British Columbia, canada, Christianity, coming out, COVID, COVID-19, crying, faith, family, God, grandmother, grandmothers, grandparents, grief, Karine Hack, LGBTQ, pandemic, queer, sexuality, shame, Vancouver, Vancouver Island, vulnerability, water
Morbid humor exists for a reason: to poke fun at our inevitable ends and lighten its emotional load. ...more
Tags: anxiety, book review, death, debut novel, emily austin, everyone in this room will someday be dead, Goodbye Vitamin, hypochondria, hypochondriac, jonathan kesh, kristen arnett, lebian, lesbians, LGBTQ, mortality, Mostly Dead Things, No One Is Talking about This, panic attack, Patricia Lockwood, Priestdaddy, queer, queerness, Rachel Khong, religion, review
It is only by holding Whitman accountable for all of his language that we can also love other parts of his language and poetics. ...more
Tags: Books, bram stoker, CAConrad, classism, colonialism, Democratic Vistas, Han VanderHart, I Sing the Body Electric, leaves of grass, LGBTQ, Mark Doty, poems, poetry, power dynamics, privilege, Quarantine, queer, racial slur, Racism, Reviews, slavery, Song of Myself, Stanley Kubrick, The Shining, thomas jefferson, W. W. Norton, Walt Whitman, What Is the Grass, What Is the Grass: Walt Whitman in My Life, white privilege, whiteness, Whitman, working class
“It was like wandering through my own labyrinth.”
Tags: Abuse, Carmen Machado, clytemnestra, debut novel, domestic abuse, emotional abuse, feminist, feminist horror, gender dysphoria, gender roles, gendered violence, Greek mythology, grief, Grieving, horror, In the Dream House, Ina Roy-Faderman, LGBTQ, Lindsay Merbaum, myth, mythology, nonbinary, Queens of Heaven and Earth, queer, queer abuse, sexual desire, The Gold Persimmon, The Rumpus Mini-Interview Project
Rajiv Mohabir discusses ANTIMAN and CUTLISH.
Tags: Anjoli Roy, Antiman, Bhojpuri, bollywood, book covers, book design, Calypso, caribbean, Caribbean Equality Project, colonialism, colonization, cover design, Cutlish, desi, Devi Laskar, family, Four Way Books, grandmother, Guyana, heritage, homophobia, hybrid, hybrid genre, hybrid memoir, identity, immigrants, India, Indo-Caribbean, Islamophobia, Jackson Heights, Jahajee Sisters, Joseph Han, Madhushree Ghosh, memoir, microaggressions, Na Kim, poems, poetry, queens, queer, Racism, Rajiv Mohabir, Restless Books, sexuality, Shikha Saklani Malaviya, south asian, The Taxidermist's Cut
Poems echo, rebound, and speak to one another. ...more
Tags: book review, childhood, childhood abuse, Darla Himeles, domestic abuse, domestic violence, family, family dysfunction, fathers and daughters, fertility, Get Fresh Books, infertility, Jenny Wong, LGBTQ, marriage, mothers and daughters, poems, poetry, poetry review, queer, queer relationships, reproductive health, review